G T N S :)

Who I Am

I am drowning deeply in these thoughts alone
sitting, staring, into this dark unknown
as i close my eyes i shield myself from the
darkness dancing around me;

as im moulding into what they want me to be,
i feel haunted and held within these walls.
im shivering from the terrors unknown,
because i am still not what they want to see;

im pushing past the burning pain inside
sitting, staring, into a dark unknown
I know what is happening and I am helpless,
helpless to help myself;

I want a moment to be real
wanna touch things I don’t feel,
wanna hold on and feel I belong,
its the comfort i am seeking, is that wrong?

as the dawn of a new day is approaching
and the madness of the day comes to life,
i am still here trying to find out
who i am, who i’m not and who i wanna be

A Heart Felt In Grave

A HEART FELT IN GRAVE
HAS LEFT ME TO BELIEVE
THAT THIS IS LIFE, THAT THIS WAS MEANT TO BE.

A HEART FELT IN GRAVE
HAS LEFT ME TO BELIEVE
THAT MY DEEPEST DARKEST FEELINGS, WOUD NEVER COME TO SURFACE.
NO LOVE, NO HATE, NO FEELINGS TO COMPLICATE MY WELL BEING.

A HEART FELT IN GRAVE
HAS LEFT ME TO BELIEVE
THAT I WOULD ALWAYS BE AFRAID, AFRAID OF MY PAST
RUINING MY FUTURE FROM ONE HORRIBLE SCENE.

A HEART FELT IN GRAVE
HAS LEFT ME TO BELIEVE
THAT FACING MY FEAR, THIS CONFUSION IN MY HEAD WILL EVENTUALLY SURPASS.
SURPASS BACK INTO THE DARKNESS, THIS STORY WILL SOON END.

A HEART FELT IN GRAVE
HAS LEAD ME TO BELIEVE
THAT THE ANGER AND THE BROKENNESS INSIDE OF ME, BRINGS CAUTION TO THOSE WHO TRY TO SEE.

THAT THIS HEART FELT IN GRAVE
HAS LEAD ME TO BELIEVE
THAT IT IS NOTHING BUT COMPLETE AND PURE EMPTINESS THAT I MUST EVENTUALLY DISPLACE.